I love my best friend.
she cares, she understands, she loves me and she helped me. I told her everything, things she knew, things she had assumed and things she didn’t want to hear but knew she needed too and yet she still didn’t judge me, she didn’t cast me aside, she told me she was proud of me for getting through. She told me things I didn’t even know about myself, understood my mind for me. And most of all, she told me ho much it hurt her when I tried to end it all, and this means the most, I can’t hurt her, so I must stop.
10:33 am • 6 April 2013 • 3 notes
one for every day that’s gone by where I think of what could have been.
First time in over a year that I’ve done this. Really disappointed in myself and scared of how good this feels again.
10:25 am • 6 April 2013 • 1 note
I haven’t been on here for months because I haven’t needed too.
I write here because I can’t keep it in my head.
My best friend, the girl I love most in the whole world, told me it was okay if I wanted to tell her everything. The why’s, how’s and where’s of me hurting myself. I trust her with anything, everything, I know she wouldn’t judge me, I know it, but I can’t make myself tell her and I don’t know why.
I want to, I want this not to be a taboo subject, I don’t want any secrets, but I can’t tell her I just can’t.
7:42 pm • 24 February 2013
gethighonadrenaline asked: Something that helped me stop cutting was getting a red pen and drawing blood and then like id snap myself with a rubber band so i still had pain but told myself I saw the blood. I mean don't start snapping the shit out of yourself. It just helped me lessen the pain and not have such a serious injury. If that makes sense.
thank you, I know what you mean, I’ve done this before, at least it helps delay cutting :)
1:38 am • 6 March 2012